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“在这世上，很少有另一个人会跟你走过完全同样的路；或是看过跟你一样的风景。或许她一直在你身旁与你经历了所有的事情，但是也不一定会有一样的看法和感触。
如果宇宙间，都没有几个这样的人，那我们又怎么可奢望身旁有理解与同意自己的人呢？
-05 09 2007 人的一生 yanling”
Squash, fail.
Photog, fail.
Math test, fail.
Econs lms, fail.
Pw, fail.
Weekends, fail.
Life, fail.
Mediocrity must be my middle name. No matter what I do, how hard I try.. S- he says i’m fast. But what use is being fast when you don’t have endurance.. P- people below say they are nice. People above pause and stare. M- how the hell do you even integrate volumes.. E- … Pw- WHAT THE HELL IS MY GROUP DOING! W- boring boring boring.. wheres all the people?!
Summation of S to W= Life->fail.
Where is everyone when I need them!
Staring at the glass in front of me, is it half empty? Someone asked me, how I can take the bad days that i just can’t get rid of. My answer was simple; I’m already used to it. I’ve tried my best to stay optimistic, but how can one be happy when nothing goes right?
Staring at the list full of friends to chat with, yet not having a single on-going chat. Who would even listen? Who would even understand? Who would even be there? The answer is no one. Some times when people sigh, it doesn’t necessarily mean that he or she is worrying. The person may just be feeling down or wanting someone to be there. There is no need to question, no need to help. Just being there would make a lot of difference, but how many know that?
Back from photog camp (which wasn’t even really a camp). Went to marina to take pictures with my partner, met sandra and her partner there, and went back to school to edit our ads. Overall the day was filled of laughter, but there are still disappointing stuff. Sigh. I guess I’d never find one day that is not disappointing. Oh. And I lost my guitar pick too. SIGH!
No more neoprints, no shopping, no food, no 
for no reason, no movies, no <3. Dinner alone yesterday, lunch alone today. Taking photos alone, taking the bus alone, walking alone. I guess the word alone has already been instilled into my dictionary. But then again, I guess there’s nothing wrong or bad about that. I can live perfectly fine like this. I have to..
As the term nears an end, things seemed to have fallen into their immovable place. Butterfly clan, couples, friendships. No matter how much I force up a brave front, I still feel like crying inside. Why am I in this mess? Is it my own doing that landed me here; in this class with a mere 9 girls? Has anyone felt as lost as this? As lost as I am. Butterfly clan aside, i see no meaning in this clique we have if we can’t even stick together.. No buddy to stick to, no one to confide in. No one to chat with, no one to hang out with. In the class that is.. I may have friends that care about me, but somehow I’m still empty inside. Superficial friends? Or friends that can’t even talk to me in real life because of the sides they have chosen. I don’t know. I really don’t. Someone bring me the antidote that cures all sadness and ease this pain embedded so deeply in the heart.
Blue, red, purple. Colours of the pH scale. Purple, red, blue. Colours of life. Red stands out among the cold colours while blue or purple stands out among the warm colours.
In life, people may be different; however, everyone should deserve a chance to prove themselves. No matter which shade of colour they are, hiding inside, they deserve a to be treated as netural green and compared and allocated from what he proves to be later on. Whether netural becomes purple or red, it doesn’t matter because there will always be a group of people with similar interest at heart.
It is really unfair to judge people based on what they hear or perceive and categories them to be “acidic” or “alkaline”. No one has the right to judge someone else. To judge someone else, it is basically a fulfillment of human desire- superiority over others. So.. I don’t know.. Bye.
People change, attitudes change, treatments change. Sometimes the changes are beyond comprehension, but one has to accept the cruel fact that things have changed and there is nothing you can do about it. Then again, what, on the face of this earth, doesn’t change? Leaves die and fall of their branches, clouds up in the blue sky turn from white to grey, even the most silent statues weather. What more do you expect from the face of a human? If there is one thing I’ve learnt through this past 3 months, it is that you just have to accept what is thrown at you and make the best out of it.
A promise was once made under the stars’ witness, that no matter what happens, we would not spread our sadness because that would just be too selfish. I guess the waves of time had washed away that promise, but the heart of it will still remain. If life gives you a storm, smile and walk out of it for there will be a rainbow at its end. For everyone who is going through tough times, just remember that at the end of the day, there will be something out there, worth your entire journey of hardship. So push on and you will find your rainbow.
On a side note, there has been feedback that my posts are causing headaches because of the structure and the bad language. I can’t do anything about the bad language, but i guess i can try to remember to caps the first letters. It looks neater anyway. So thanks. “Be open to criticism” was what you said :)
as you walk past the green fields that remind you of the days you used to run dreadfully in, for NDP practice, it makes you wonder, what is life? “life is not a bed of roses”, i’m sure by now everyone would have realised. sometimes life just sucks. you have lousy PIs to prepare for the group, truckloads of concepts you need to understand, mountains of homework that have to be completed, and you are dead tired, physically and mentally. no matter how many breaks you take, its just not enough to make the stress go away. homework will still be homework, tests will still be tests and PW will still be PW.
once again, tired+broke+pissed at some social problems, i had a really dead+upset look at physics spa today. joanne, joshua, yawen and i think daniel noticed. as usual 
my dear ranting buddies. thanks people.
to dear cheryl love, I REALLY MISS YOU! ): thanks for the huggiesss persevere on in IB! its only 596 more days! 
i’ll be waiting for you at the end of the tunnel!
to buddy whom i havent sms-ed in a day, RUN!! :/ things may not seem well, but GOGOGO!!!! go kick some ass and bring back the medal! to god be the glory, and the best yet to be!
as the crowd’s cheers roar in your ears and sweat rolls down your neck, your vision starts to focus on the tiny black ball. you dash towards it, reaching out as far as you can, in an attempt to hit it as hard as your opponent did. the world around you suddenly becomes non-exisitent. for that few seconds, the one and only thing that seemed to matter was that tiny black ball crying “catch me catch me!” that, my dears, is squash. as we trained today, thats all i felt. i totally missed every single word coach said as i was doing the laps :/ those much needed words of praise/criticism. ): thus, i have no idea how well i am doing in squash.
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HAPPY APRIL FOOL’S DAY! 1SB6’s specs day was an epic failure, but i managed to shock a few people with specs and tied up hair quite a fun-filled day. although we had mass pe[8 Ipull+165SBJ+2 rounds circuit training] +squash [supposed to be 4 rounds but i ran 2+countless laps of practice], the day at school ended in quite a happy note.
but the day at home is hell. i’m aching, i’m tired, i’m stressed and i’m broke. got reprimanded for getting the squash googles (which i had to pay by myself in the end). like wtf. broke yanling=cranky yanling. pftttt.
as the days pass, the bad events have piled up to over the week engulfs you so form a cloud of nothing-ness. you’d begin to question yourself: what is there to live for when life is so down? however, as the colours of your world fade to grey, there will always be a bunch of people who are willing to colour ever single bit of your life back to its previous glory, and put a smile back on your face. to me, these are the small things worth living for. the people who care, the people who were always by you, the people who made an effort to make your days better. for all that its worth, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
smiles are not meant to be kept for yourselves, they are meant to be shared with others. everyone wants to smile and be happy. i guess, counting the little blessings in a day fogged up by unhappy events is the only way one can see the light at the end of the tunnel. so lets try.
today, 1) buddy asked gladys to be with me on tuesday because he knew i was sad cos i had no one to be with before muse sweet buddy. thanks~ 2) i lost my stapler. like great.. but daniel, ranting buddy was there to help .
so far theres just this two, but guess what, the day is not over yet for those who are going through bad times like me, the best is yet to be. thanks my friends.
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