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Back from photog camp (which wasn’t even really a camp). Went to marina to take pictures with my partner, met sandra and her partner there, and went back to school to edit our ads. Overall the day was filled of laughter, but there are still disappointing stuff. Sigh. I guess I’d never find one day that is not disappointing. Oh. And I lost my guitar pick too. SIGH!
No more neoprints, no shopping, no food, no 
for no reason, no movies, no <3. Dinner alone yesterday, lunch alone today. Taking photos alone, taking the bus alone, walking alone. I guess the word alone has already been instilled into my dictionary. But then again, I guess there’s nothing wrong or bad about that. I can live perfectly fine like this. I have to..
As the term nears an end, things seemed to have fallen into their immovable place. Butterfly clan, couples, friendships. No matter how much I force up a brave front, I still feel like crying inside. Why am I in this mess? Is it my own doing that landed me here; in this class with a mere 9 girls? Has anyone felt as lost as this? As lost as I am. Butterfly clan aside, i see no meaning in this clique we have if we can’t even stick together.. No buddy to stick to, no one to confide in. No one to chat with, no one to hang out with. In the class that is.. I may have friends that care about me, but somehow I’m still empty inside. Superficial friends? Or friends that can’t even talk to me in real life because of the sides they have chosen. I don’t know. I really don’t. Someone bring me the antidote that cures all sadness and ease this pain embedded so deeply in the heart.
Life has been ok for the past few days? Maybe it’s the illusion that we’ll finally get a break when we actually aren’t. Slacking has become the norm. Squash did get better… like finally… after so many tries. THANKS LOGAN! OMG! Haha. BUT, I hope i dont lose the feel of the wrist lock and footwork aw gosh. i think i’m losing it again. sigh. sucker ):
Blue, red, purple. Colours of the pH scale. Purple, red, blue. Colours of life. Red stands out among the cold colours while blue or purple stands out among the warm colours.
In life, people may be different; however, everyone should deserve a chance to prove themselves. No matter which shade of colour they are, hiding inside, they deserve a to be treated as netural green and compared and allocated from what he proves to be later on. Whether netural becomes purple or red, it doesn’t matter because there will always be a group of people with similar interest at heart.
It is really unfair to judge people based on what they hear or perceive and categories them to be “acidic” or “alkaline”. No one has the right to judge someone else. To judge someone else, it is basically a fulfillment of human desire- superiority over others. So.. I don’t know.. Bye.
Today started out as an ok day. Things seemed to be getting better, with 3 of my photos printed out for the Man VS Beast exhibition (YAY! \(^.^)/) but some random person was like saying the one featured was like “anyhow say they are fighting… and midst also spell wrong.”. Crap… Anyway, topped econs! (WOOHOO!) But its like 13/20… Retarded ttm… nothing to be proud of.. But at least I didn’t fail.. PE today was the slackest PE ever. 
Pre-squash was funny ttm 
but squash was… sigh.. depressing. Lets not talk about how i sucked today… I think i was dreaming.. ==”
如果我变成回忆
演唱：TANK 专辑：如果我变成回忆
累了 交困里努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了
听着 你心像往常还有热
越美丽越更勇敢的
我还能展示什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握
如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会颁这种法门
想牵着你 槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他给你 我不怪你
快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得
如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会颁这种法门
想牵着你 槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他给你
如果我变成回忆 最怕我单独终极
顽固的烂在空气 不整理行李 每一寸空隙
原来依然爱我的你总哭 承受失去
这样不公平 请你整理 把我忘记
一个人就好
演唱：刘力扬 专辑：《爱就宅一起》电视原声带
作词/作曲：徐旻铃 编曲：郑楠
街 挤满了欢笑
太不适合 眼泪凑热闹
快跑 快寻找 无人的转角
不优雅时候 一个人最好
爱 说退就退潮
我松开手 回忆却没放掉
未来 不来了 地球 继续绕
躲回温暖的梦 我一个人就好
为什麽 越相信谁能依靠
越换来 又一次灵魂寂寥
有没有永远 再不会让心绝望的解药
如果说 越踏出世界一脚
越不能 保留住天真微笑
那从今以后 我一个人过 就很好
心 很平静地跳
只是寂寞 潜伏像海啸
突然某一秒 偷袭我眼角
眼泪自己擦掉 我一个人很好
为什麽 越相信谁能依靠
越换来 又一次灵魂寂寥
有没有永远 再不会让心绝望的解药
如果说 越踏出世界一脚
越不能 保留住天真微笑
那从今以后 我一个人过 就很好
People change, attitudes change, treatments change. Sometimes the changes are beyond comprehension, but one has to accept the cruel fact that things have changed and there is nothing you can do about it. Then again, what, on the face of this earth, doesn’t change? Leaves die and fall of their branches, clouds up in the blue sky turn from white to grey, even the most silent statues weather. What more do you expect from the face of a human? If there is one thing I’ve learnt through this past 3 months, it is that you just have to accept what is thrown at you and make the best out of it.
A promise was once made under the stars’ witness, that no matter what happens, we would not spread our sadness because that would just be too selfish. I guess the waves of time had washed away that promise, but the heart of it will still remain. If life gives you a storm, smile and walk out of it for there will be a rainbow at its end. For everyone who is going through tough times, just remember that at the end of the day, there will be something out there, worth your entire journey of hardship. So push on and you will find your rainbow.
On a side note, there has been feedback that my posts are causing headaches because of the structure and the bad language. I can’t do anything about the bad language, but i guess i can try to remember to caps the first letters. It looks neater anyway. So thanks. “Be open to criticism” was what you said :)
its the first time the sky was dark when i was walking home from acjc. yet another solitary walk down that same old path. there are times when people just feel useless. whether it is in his or her niche area, or just a random activity. things in school in terms of its the first time the sky was dark when i was walking home from acjc. yet another solitary walk down that same old path. there are times when people just feel useless. whether it is in his or her niche area, or just a random activity. things in school in terms of achedemic has picked up. i can roughly keep up with the curriculum. but in terms of cca i think i’ve failed myself.
i’m not an ambitious person, but it really sucks to be mediocre at at everything. be it photog or squash. i’m quite sure i’m not the worst player or photographer, but looking at the pros and seniors, it makes me feel so small… so inferior. although this photo made it through the exco to be critiqued by the guest speaker today, and he said there was good composition (thats what i always get ._.), but its not like its excellent or anything. there were far better pictures there… not like i would ever win any competitions.
i guess that is just my life. unfated with the medals i long to have.
beauty in the imperfection is truly in the eyes of the beholder. sometimes dwelling too deep into something can blur your vision of the thing that matter as well, the surface. no one is perfect so instead of looking at the bad points, who not look at the good points? if beauty is subjective, then imperfection must be too. no one can judge who you really are, similarly, you dont have the right to judge anyone else. the imperfection you see can easily be ignored for it is just a thought, not exactly a matter of fact. so the next time you see a flaw ever so clearly, put in an effort to see beyond that flaw and make the best out of it.
no matter how flawed life is now, imperfection is just an attitude. look beyond the flaws and you’ll get there.
no idea what to do with my life. no idea who to stay with. no idea who to choose (if i even have a choice). life is so aimless now. just like an empty-headed robot, going to school everyday, releasing that programmed laughter. whatever happened to the yanling sandra called “someone who never stops laughing” :/
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oreo chocolate alleviates emo-ness 
rofl. really tired nowwww arghhh. i lost 7 hrs of sleep that i havent replenished yet!!! Y.Y my leg is aching.. ): slight sprain i guess. sigh. nothing much. squash was nothing… but i think i have no hope of even making the recre team sad-ed. i wanna get that medal! ): for non-team squash comp. but cmi. sigh. v.stress also. SIGHHH!
arghhh. econs test~~~!!! )): i dont remember a shit. gg ): econs makes me irritated. roar.
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